No Good Mother

Well, its been a long while since I've been on here. Not much has dramatically changed. I am still sleeping in my friends living room. I still have no car. Luck just hasn't been on my side lately. I have been saving money to get a car and every time I get a good chunk of change saved up, something happens. A few weeks ago, I got really sick. I had a sinus infection and a severe inner ear infection and my ear drum ruptured. That week cost me over $300 bucks.

I was just getting back on track and was apartment hunting but kept getting denied from apartments. After calling my old apartments, I discovered my shady mother took the rent money I left with her to pay my apartment and spent it. So it went to collections. I had to pay over $600 to get it off my credit. Now I'm back to square 1.

How come when I finally make a change in my life for the better and try to live my life the right way, I go through more grief than before when I was careless? It just doesn't seem fair. When will the clouds clear for me??

Things are looking up!

Okay, so it's been a while since I've blogged but here I am!

Update: So it's been really rough here. I've been lonely, homesick and sad and for a while, all I did was cry. Christmas sucked! I found out my grandma has skin cancer and my grandpa has some kind of mass in his throat. How great is that news??? And of all the days to break it to me, my family had to do it on Christmas... when I'm over 1,000 miles away from home. I immediately wanted to pack my stuff and move home which I came close to doing. I already had a ride and place to stay planned. BUT like always, I'm very irrational when it comes to my emotions. After really thinking it over, I realized I was using my grandparents and my homesickness as an excuse to run again. Every time something gets too hard for me to handle, I run. The whole point in me moving away from home and starting over was to change that flaw.

I can say it's gotten a bit easier though. I am still home sick but I have made several friends from work. We went out on New Years and had a great time! I also met a guy! His name is Scott and I really like him. For once, I'm not letting my nerves get the best of me. I've actually been on 4 dates with him. Maybe this will be the first Valentines Day that I will have a date. :)

I've also been looking around at apartments and that's exciting. I'm just ready to get off this couch and on my own lol. Another thing, I'm going to start a sketch comedy channel on youtube. I think it would be great for me..... OF course, I have to buy a better computer and a nice camera. My writing has slowed down so I'm trying to pick back up on that too.... one day at a time.... one day...

Not Having A Good Start!

Well, I've been here 3 weeks and still have no job. I got a call for a grooming position at a dog resort. I went in for an interview, it went great and I was sure I made a good impression. She asked me to come in this morning for a "test day" to see how I work and groom. Again, I think it went great. She even had me fill out a bunch of paperwork including the w-4 forms, so correct me if I'm wrong, but doesn't that usually mean you're hired. Apparently not at this place. After I finished grooming my last dog, she tells me she still has a few more applicants to interview and will give me a call in the next few days.... what??? I was so excited thinking I finally found a job. My stress levels were going down and I was finally starting to relax and now I get hit with a brick. I did get a call for an interview at another pet resort so hopefully that interview will go well and I wont get mixed answers. Keep me in your prayers and wish me luck. I really want it to work out here... I don't want to move back to  Texas and be the center of people's jokes thinking I just gave up. :(

Day 7!

I've offically been here 1 week and so far... so good. I still don't have a job but have an interview tomorrow. Hope it goes well. Today I helped Renee at the Nature Center that she volunteers at. I helped feed the turtles and lizards, but refused to touch the snakes. They also have a spastic chipmunk that I didn't really care to go near lol. It was gross because I had to handle worms and crickets but I got it done! :) So I've worked out a plan with Renee and Jay that I will just live here until I buy a car, that way when I move out I wont have to rely on Renee picking me up for work. I just hope I land a job that pays good enough. Jay says I need atleast 5,000 for a good cash car or even for a down payment on a used car. It's really stressful right now. I don't have my own room as I was promised but nothing I can really do about it. It's their house. I've already made it clear that I will help with bills, food, etc but Im not paying rent to sleep in a 4 year olds bed (which is where Im sitting at this moment) lol. Keep me in your prayers and wish me luck!

-PEACE-

Made it!

So I finally arrived in Richmond, Virginia! I must say I don't care to make that drive ever again. It took 32 hours to get here from Texas, only because of the rebellious mattress we had strapped to the top of the SUV. It's normally a 23 hour drive. But, I'm here and in 1 piece... and exhausted. Va is beautiful. The trees are all green, orange and yellow and there's so many different kinds. We passed miles of rolling hills and the cutest houses scattered everywhere. We went through a small town called Salem. It reminded me of the town from the movie Hocus Pocus... it was so tiny, it took us 10 minutes to drive through it. I'd love to live there but it's 4 hours from the town I'm staying in right now. I think I will learn to love it here. Right now, I'm laying here a little terrified because I know there's no turning back now but I am determined to make it here. I will make a new, happy life for myself.

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Reality sinking in.

If you know me personally, you know how excited I've been to move to Virginia. I've been counting down the days like a kid waiting for summer vacation. Getting out of Texas and experiencing a new life is something I've dreamed of doing for years, but I realized that it's finally starting to don on me what I'm doing. I was at my apartment and sorting through stuff, getting ready for my yard sale when it hit me. I'm actually going through with this. I'm literally selling nearly everything I own. As I'm putting price labels on whatever I find, I get a little sad. Not that I think I'm making a bad decision, but I'm leaving my entire life behind. I'm leaving friends, family and all the memories I've made here. This is home! I'm going to be sitting at the yard sale this weekend and helplessly watching strange people carry away with my stuff. I mean, I know it has to be done. I have nowhere to put an entire apartment of belongings. Besides, what's the point of trying to have a fresh start if you carry along all your old baggage? I know I will like Virginia and deep down I know I will be okay. It's nice to know I have a home to come back to. It's just scary, that's all. I'd appreciate prayers.